January 15, 2009

Emotions Today

I am listening to the bible study called Anointed, Transformed and Redeemed. I asked for this study on disc for Christmas and my sweet MIL bought it for me. I bought the workbook that goes along with it. It has been a great study. Priscilla Shirer, Beth Moore and Kay Arthur offer the Deeper Still conferences and this study is an adaptation from their conference last year. Beth is hitting on trusting God when we are offended by the choices He makes. I went through so much turmoil when Jack was diagnosed, I really had to seek the Lord for my faith to grow to find that trust again. God was ALWAYS trustworthy, my faith just needed to grow. It did, thanks be to God, and I worked through a hard time with victory on the other side. Listening to this study has brought up some of those feelings again. It is not a bad thing, I am just reminded that God has brought me through some really tough times and I am certainly a work in progress.

I had an emotional day today. Seems like I started crying at the drop of a hat more than once. Part of the reason I think is that the Anointed study I am listening to is hitting me where it hurts, touching very fragile places in my heart, and it has left me emotional. The other reason is that I heard such a heart breaking testimony this week I don't think that my heart has recovered from that. The testimony ends well, God is certainly the Victor, but the darkness that my friend had to deal with from a very young age has stuck with me and I haven't quite been able to shake it.

These are the days that I just need to curl up with the bible and some praise music and talk to my sweet heavenly Father.

This is my favorite song right now. Healing Rain by Michael W. Smith

3 comments:

Debbie said...

Definitely my favorite song as well.

Blessings on you, Tammy.

Wife of Rob said...

My hubby and I hit a perverbial "bump in the road" yesterday...that caught us both out of left field. The result for me was an excrutiatingly emotional evening. I praise God in the circumstances. He has still blessed me with an incredible husband and I have so many blessings to be thankful for. Thank you for your post today...I was right there with you yesterday.

honey said...

What a incredible song and video! Love you! Jacki