April 28, 2011

Good Results for Jack

Thursday afternoon and Rob and Jack are returning home from their Dallas trip. Jack had MRI and Oncology Clinic this morning. They drove up yesterday and stayed in a hotel, the Ronald McDonald House was booked up ; ( They had a blast and made the most of their guy time together. They swam and ordered room service and hung out last night.

My report from Rob today was that the MRI and Oncology Clinic went well, the doctors were all pleased with Jack's latest results.

We will be scheduling an appt. with a doctor in Dallas to measure Jack's comprehensive abilities. We knew that the radiation to his brain would cause some damage, as the doctors told us it was inevitable. We have been blessed that the only area that became a struggle for Jack was math, he went from math being a strong subject to having some great difficulties in processing. It took a good year to 18 months for us to see the long term effects. With tutoring Jack has done well to keep a B average in Math. The doctors want to do a cumulative testing day that will break down any other areas that could have been affected so we will be prepared and also it will give Jack the information to help him succeed by being prepared and informed.

I think we will schedule that testing for this summer some time.


This was the first trip that I didn't go with Jack to have the MRI and Clinic visit. I can definitely say it is easier emotionally when I am right there and in the middle of all the hub bub going on. Rob took Jack because it was easier for him to take off a day and half from work than it was for me to miss classes so close to finals. I really didn't think it would be that big of a deal for me, I knew it would be hard, but I hadn't been overly worried about Jack getting a bad report. So I thought...I can do this. I did my normal weigh out the situation and find the positives that are there. Of course the greatest positive was that Rob and Jack would have some good father/son time. And then I wouldn't miss my classes. I would have a nice time at home with Derek and Sophie. I held on to those positives. But this morning, after not sleeping well without Rob at home, I was tired and that certainly didn't help that my emotions were welling up inside of me. So I had pretty much worked myself up into a frenzy. YUCK! When I got the news from Rob I started crying like it was the first time we had gotten good news.

I am goofy crazy.

April 27, 2011

Brekky and The Royal Wedding

I am here to say that I realize that I am "a bit" excited about the Royal Wedding between William and Kate on Friday. In order to celebrate I have stopped by our local British Shoppe to acquire some must have's for our breakfast on Friday morning. Tomorrow I will make the scones, I am going to make cream scones and chocolate chip scones. The clotted cream and lemon curd will be the toppings for the cream scones. Of course we need some biscuits (cookies) to snack on and some Golden Syrup to pour over our crumpets. I have some P&G Tips Loose Leaf Tea to complete the meal. It will be a grand celebration!

April 24, 2011

The Great Hug

I was alone in my bedroom. I had woken to the hot Arizona sun streaming through my window that was right over my head. 20 years later I can still remember clearly what happened that morning. I opened my eyes, wondering why I needed to open them at all. Maybe the craziness of my life had taken its toll. The fun no longer could cover up the emptiness. The friends could no longer disguise my hopelessness. I woke up with clarity to see, even with my eyes squeezed closed, that I was a shell of a person. What I had searched for around every corner for many years might have wooed me with its treasures, but treasures they were not. I had no purpose, or so I thought. I made a choice that morning, there were two roads. One to death and one to...I didn't know where, but that road was filled with the kind love of a pursuing Christ who had spoken to my heart over and over, even when I didn't want to listen. This morning it was Christ's voice speaking to my heart which spoke compassion and kindness that drew me to fall out of my bed and onto my knees and pray for the first time in years. Jesus. Help me. I am sorry I have sinned. Please, forgive me. If you will save me from my life, I will never turn away again. It was in that moment that the presence of the Jesus, wrapped His arms around me. It felt like there was someone holding me, I looked up and no one could be seen. But I knew in that moment the words that were spilling forth into my heart were from my Beloved Christ. I forgive you. You are mine. You are worthy. You have a purpose. I will save you.

Rob has said to me on occasion that he has never known anyone who has held on to their faith with so much conviction for so long. I live today like I was lifted to a new life just yesterday. If there is a moment that I might start wavering in my dedication to Christ all I need to do is close my eyes and remember that hot morning in Arizona and I can feel the presence of my Savior like I was there. I have had many times of questioning and trying to make sense with 'my' understanding, but I have never questioned that there was a God, because that day in my bedroom, He was there in form that was invisible to my eyes, but the touch of His arms that held me and that guided me to my new life were very real. In the life He has for me there is hope, love, mercy, grace, forgiveness, and fullness.

Easter morning, and why am I remembering this right now? As I read through my favorite Easter morning scripture I see myself in Mary Magdalene, she has been healed of 7 demons, and she is lost without her Christ. She would do whatever she needs to do to find Him. I read those words because she is desperate for her King, her Savior, her beloved, and I feel her desperation in my heart. She and I have been healed and without Christ we are empty like the tomb.


From the word of the Lord. John 20:10
Then the disciples went back to their homes, but Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus' body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.
They asked her, "Woman, why are you crying?" "They have taken my Lord away," she said, "and I don't know where they have put him." At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.
"Woman," he said, "why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?"
Thinking he was the gardener, she said, "Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him."
Jesus said to her, "Mary."
She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, "Rabboni!" (which means Teacher).


I am thankful to God who shows Himself to those who cry out to Him. I am thankful that I chose the road of Christ that morning. This morning I can not wait to lift my hands to worship the Resurrection of Christ. The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. The Triune of Love. They are great to be praised on high, but compassionate enough to wrap their arms around each of us who call to them with all of our heart.

April 06, 2011

Sophie's Candy Planet

Sophie and Jack had an assignment in Science to design their own planets. They were to create a planet, write about the planet, then make a model of their planet to turn in. I didn't get a picture of Jack's planet, but he decided to use a kit from Hobby Lobby and painted each of his moons that surrounded his large planet. He did a great job. Sophie's planet was a candy planet that only had kids on it, except for the adults who were there to run the stores and services for the kids. So basically the adults were the slaves and the kids ruled. We used a floral foam ball for the base of her planet, she did all the work herself, painted and applied the candy and fruit loops. I love how it turned out, but my favorite parts were her swirled painting and the gummy fish swimming in the ocean. I took some pictures, and a hungry visitor made an appearance towards the end.

Here is the planet ; )

Looking through my lens I see a visitor is entering the scene.

I grabbed this picture before the hungry planet eating scoundrel opened those jaws of hers and tried to abscond with a fruit loop. Thankfully, Sophie did an excellent job with the hot glue gun and the fruit loop was secure enough to stay put.

I probably could have taken a picture of the scoundrel after I told her no. She laid down, rolled over on her back and looked very sorry for her intrusion.
When I told Sophie about this when she returned from school that day she said that Snickers had snuck in and gotten some of the fruit loops she had in a bowl as she was gluing them on. She must have a thing for fruit loops.

April 05, 2011

Loving School!!

Tuesday night. Rob and I watch two shows together each week...Castle and Parenthood. We are t minus 13 minutes until Parenthood starts.

School...is going well. It is very busy, more assignments than I thought I could possibly ever have. For the most part they are not too taxing, but they are like little woodpeckers pecking me to death ; )

I continue to love school with all of my being. I will certainly be glad to be done with the last couple of lower level classes I have this semester and then a couple next semester. It seems as though there is an overdose of busy work in the lower level classes.

I do have to say that Dr. Richard Beck is not about busy work. He is the greatest professor EVER!! I am taking a statistics class for Psych majors and it is more fun and interesting than any stats class has a right to be. Dr. Beck keeps everyone engaged by using crazy examples to break it down and make it understandable. My favorite examples have to do with pergutory. I do enjoy the way that he intertwines spirituality with all subjects.
OK, enough about my amazing stats class...

My research topic that I have chosen, with guidance from my mentor, for the McNair Scholar's Program is Spiritual Coping. Such an interesting topic. I have completed gathering all of my research and now to start to combine it all together. This is a challenging program, and I am going to come through this program better for it.

T minus 1. Time to turn on the TV and sit with my cute hubbie and watch Lauren Graham wishing for the Gilmore Girls to go ahead and make a season 8.

Ancient Prayer for Today - Psalm 130

1 Out of the depths I cry to you, LORD;
2 Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.

3 If you, LORD, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.

5 I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.