September 04, 2007

Walking with the Lord is never dull.

Labor day weekend, was full of as little labor as possible at our house. Three day weekends are great.
We continue to look towards September 13th for Jack's next MRI in Dallas. The neurosurgeon will be out of the office again, we got the call a couple of days ago. I didn't want to reschedule the MRI so we will go and get it done, then whenever Jack's Dr. get's back in the office he will look over the scan. I told the nurse when she called I want Jack off of steroids as soon as possible and we we didn't want to wait another month for an opening on the MRI schedule. Having the head of neurosurgery of a major Children's Hospital as Jack's current Dr. is a blessing, but their schedules are quite hectic.
Over the last week I have read two books, Get out of that Pit, Straight Talk about God's Deliverance, by Beth Moore, and For Women Only by Shaunti Feldhahn. Both were great books. For Women Only was a good reminder about how important it is to bless our husbands. Get our of that Pit, was an excellent read and I couldn't recommend it enough.

I have continued to beg, plead, pray, study, cry out to our Lord for increase in my belief and faith. There is such a difference in believing in God and believing God. Over this last week it is sinking into my extremely thick skull that God wants us to enter into fellowship with him in so many areas. My friend Sarah has quoted a scripture many times that talks about participating in the Divine Nature of God. Sarah - what scripture is that? Stepping out on faith in area's that God has called me to in the past have not ever been so hard. I really don't have words to describe what God is calling me to. I do feel like He is calling me to participate more in my faith and believe Him more than ever before. It is only He that can increase my faith and my belief in Him, but I must be willing to put my heart on the line more than ever before and seek Him and be ready for the increase. I wish it was on my time line, but it is not. I do have complete trust in Him that His time line is right on track and I am loved right where I am it is just time for me to move closer. Any guilt or frustration with myself is straight from the devil and I will not take that on. I have worn the clothes of fear and hopelessness for the last several months and unknowingly got myself quite comfortable in the pit that I found myself in.
Thank you God for the lift out of the pit. Walking with the Lord is NEVER dull.


Melissa said...

I just want to thank you for always being so real. Your life is transparent and that's refreshing. I can't even imagine being in your shoes, but you wear them with grace and hope. Your true faith in the Lord is so evident in all you say and do. You may feel like you're in a pit, but all I see is His light shining through you.

Sarah said...

Sorry! I just now saw I had a question in this post! It is 1 Peter 2:3,4:

His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

I LOVE that scripture (as you know) for so many reasons -- beautiful, beautiful.

The great thing about "putting your heart on the line" where the Lord is concerned -- is knowing that He, truly, has your heart AND soul in mind in anything He does as well. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it, and I guess that's where faith comes in.