March 27, 2007

I Lift My Eyes

I lift my eyes to the hills – where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 47:7

It is strange for this post to follow, O Happy Day. But I made a commitment when I decided to let this blog get personal that it would do just that be a personal account of how this journey looks as we walk through the ups and downs of cancer.

The week before the big tests and procedures are the hardest for me. I am able with God’s help for the most part to be strong and trust in the Lord without much waivering. But as the days close in it seems that my flesh nature becomes weaker and I start to let the what if’s have a little corner of my wonderings. So this is the time that I MUST find ALL my strength in the Lord. These are the days that I must keep His word with me at all times, to wallpaper the crevices of my thoughts with the promises of God.

When people say with their words or sometimes with their eyes, “How do you do it?” I can honestly say that it is not me. Several months before Jack was diagnosed I fell apart one day with the thought of one of my kids getting cancer. I had no idea that I would ever have a child with cancer, but just the thought of it made me shake and cry. I knew I couldn’t handle it emotionally, I could never be strong enough. And those words hold true today, I could never be strong enough, my help comes from the Lord, the Maker who created all the world, is my Helper who gives me strength.

It is during this week that I will keep my index cards with me that hold scriptures that give me strength and bring the power of God through His inspired Word.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6,7

When you lie down, you will not be afraid, yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet. Prov 3:24

Be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2

This post is a celebration of the God who saves. He saves those who are in the midst of struggles who lift their eyes to Him. My eyes are lifted and I am calling on the name of the Lord.


Sarah said...

Thank you so much for this encouragement!

I read a blog by a mother with a child who has a defective heart. She mentioned how frequently people misquote to her: God won't give you anymore than you can bear. She said the scripture people are paraphrasing says we won't be TEMPTED beyond what we can bear. She went on to say that He gives us things all the time that He KNOWS we can't bear, just so we can give it to Him to carry for us. Your words illustrate that exact thought.

Praying, praying, praying!!!!!!

Julie Adams said...

I wanted you to know that I copied and pasted a lot of this entry to share with a friend. We have both been going through our own battles, but though we all think our own battles are so hard we must realize there are much harder ones out there... I sent her a piece of this and the scripture. After losing my mother I totally understand the question in the eyes of people. You are blessed with three spirited children that can give you all the hope and inspiration as well. I am praying yet again...

Donna Ware said...

Your sweet family has been in our thoughts and prayers constantly this week. We continue our prayer for complete healing. May the God of peace be with you this week and calm your fears.

We love you so!

Amber Joy said...

And I am calling on the name of the Lord with you.