January 16, 2007

I Cry Out


Tuesday morning. Jack's MRI is tomorrow morning and we will get the results on Thursday morning, so I will post the update when I get to a computer on Thursday.
This is when my stomach starts turning over. I am dreading this visit. Sometimes I wish I could just put my head under the sand and pretend like none of this is real, but unfortunately I don't think that will work very well. I am certainly praying that there was no growth and that the MRI's margin of error was to blame for the last results. Maybe not very realistic and that is where I tend to reside, realism. But not today, I am finding the wiggle room and climbing in, grabbing a blanket and staying a while.
My only hope is in the Lord. I cry out for His hand of mercy to heal. I am weak and I need Your love. I lift my eyes to the hills and that is where my Help comes from. O Lord my God you are the lifter of my head. Without God I would not know how to have sorrow and hope at the same time. The Lord is my Rock and my Shelter.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

We are all praying for good results! Love you, Jacki

Nicole said...

You are all in our prayers and daily thoughts.

Anna said...

I will be praying for you tonight & especially tomorrow. The Lord will be with you all the way. =)

Robyn said...

Praying continuously!
The Wertheims

Julie Adams said...

You never know who is praying. Four hours away from you I have been praying for my Jack. I don't know exactly what God wants me to ask for... I want to ask that Jack be perfectly healthy, but even when I met you last year you did not know when he would be able to finally stop treatments. Tammy, he is a fighter. He doesn't let anything stand in his way and no matter what those results show - he is already a warrior. The hardest thing in the world is to throw our hands up in the air and just give it all to God. As a mother you feel helpless and almost hopeless, but thank God you have that incredible family around you at this time. You are such an inspiration to the world. God is going to get an earful about Jack from all of your support system tonight and tomorrow...